MAINSTREAMING AIN'T HAPPINESS This morning I wrote this in french : "[...] On m'a fait croire qu'il n'y avait qu'à deux que le bonheur était possible. J'ai appris une autre vérité : être deux c'est être aussi à moitié vide. [...]". (someone told me that happiness was only possible being two. I learnt another truth : to be two is to be half empty too). It's craze how since you're a child, cartoons, fairytales, etc.. teach you that you can be happy only if you find love, have children etc.. The reality ? Human's scared to be individual, to learn more about itself and take decisions. Nothing never make me feel happier than creation and gigs, to fight for the way I felt being the good one. I know who I am, my desires and choices exclusively belong to me. I live.
Picture : Chibi Nigeru aka P'tite Pute (lil' whore) ♥ ha haI don't like to waste my time with people spitting and spending their time to spread bullshits. Betrayers, hypocritical persons, jealous ones, stupid groupies (the kind of stalker who spend days and night to get on your nerves), ex-girlfriend looking for conflict, etc.. Really. Get a life, cuz I just care about creation, my family, my rare friends, and our fans ! ;)
NOT ONLY A FAMILY AFFAIR BUT...
We all have a different education. From it, we give a shape to our own way of living and thinking. Mine has been good. A loving mother, and a father-leader of thepack, the incarnation of strenghth, the image of father that every child would like to have : the guy that nothing kills and who hold an heavy weight on his shoulders, but never complain of it. From my mom, I got the heart. I'm a sensitive person when you know me very well. But only few persons know this side of my personality. Like her I'm slim, and have blue eyes. From my dad, I got this special ability to feel people, this problem with authority and this fighting spirit which makes that I will never give up as long as I can carry on my way, and will ever do my best in everything I do. And like him, I could die for the one I really love. Some of my friends could tell you about this ha ha ;) I'm not the kind of guy speaking a lot and running like a coward when there is a danger ^ ^ From both, I got my hands, as able to caress as break things. I'm not the mirror reflect of my parents, that's sure. None in my family got artistic interests or has been into the kind of musics I'm listening to. But anyway, one thing is clear : The apple never falls far from the tree. :)
We all have a different education. From it, we give a shape to our own way of living and thinking. Mine has been good. A loving mother, and a father-leader of thepack, the incarnation of strenghth, the image of father that every child would like to have : the guy that nothing kills and who hold an heavy weight on his shoulders, but never complain of it. From my mom, I got the heart. I'm a sensitive person when you know me very well. But only few persons know this side of my personality. Like her I'm slim, and have blue eyes. From my dad, I got this special ability to feel people, this problem with authority and this fighting spirit which makes that I will never give up as long as I can carry on my way, and will ever do my best in everything I do. And like him, I could die for the one I really love. Some of my friends could tell you about this ha ha ;) I'm not the kind of guy speaking a lot and running like a coward when there is a danger ^ ^ From both, I got my hands, as able to caress as break things. I'm not the mirror reflect of my parents, that's sure. None in my family got artistic interests or has been into the kind of musics I'm listening to. But anyway, one thing is clear : The apple never falls far from the tree. :)
MEOWRRRNew mic, new hat, what else ? x)
AX SYNTH from Roland ?
Well, it can't wait a bit longer ^ ^ There are big things we do not care,
And little nothings which make our day.
We don't know why, but that's like this.
Whatever, beginning of the week has been
really hard to me, but now I'm feeling great !
I have people behind me, I work on things I like
(my last hobby ? eating lots of CSS codes to improve
my knowledges in myspace custom ha ha ! :D
Well, shopping day, as I mentionned above, it was fun, and then, I enjoyed my day ! :) MUSIC MYSPACE UPDATED
GRAPHISM MYSPACE UPDATED Check this drawing out ! It has been made by Scread ! It represents The Grave at our beginnings together, I love this drawing ! Don't hesitate to participate to the contest too !!! ;)
A PLATONIC ONE...A nightlight, able to burn my heart
even when the moon is high above,
under these dark skies...
Picture : Me with some cool fans, after our gig with Bliss, on may 2009. Musical world is really a hard one. However there are some cool people with a heart inside of it. Sometimes, it's hard to keep head out of water but if you're supported by good friends, with a great experience, then you can better carry on your way. Without advises of some friends, I won't ever learn as much as I did for a year ! :)
STAY UNITED
It's obvious, music is a really interesting world. Cuz even if spend more money that we earn (music asks for sacrifies, much more at the beginning), we learn about anything all along our life. Sound, things to know to plan gigs in a good way, cd press, etc.. And in a human way, you learn too. It's not a common idea in music, but I ever supported little bands that I liked. I think it's stupid to try to crush others to rise. That's so human. With Scread, that's cool, cuz we're not so human x) ha ha. It's more interesting to support bands and becoming friends than spite in their back or being jealous, blablabla. That's not my way. STOP BEING CHILDISH
I think that any artist has right to exist. Even mainstream pure shits. Whatever is the style, there's always work behind a band getting on stage all over the world, selling cds, etc.. Even for TH. I hate their music deeply, I can't bear their image, childish reactions of their groupies, etc.. But I respect their work. People who prefer to spite before understand like to hate what doesn't fit them. Personnally, I know that there's nothing if you do nothing. Sure, we always can speak about what is better, blablabla. But this is childish. Why to blame an artist who gets fame for what he's doing ? It's cool for him, even if you estimate that you're worth better, etc.. You know, I don't think that jealousy is the way. Sometimes I'm disapointed too, of working so hard for not so much consideration, but you have to know why you do things. Then, jealousy won't ever grab you ;) Well, I'm happy that some musicians are united. We spoke about it with Heinrich, my friend and bass in Blackrain... We have much to gain being united, fightint together, than trying to bring the other bands down. I know that lots of people here in France spited on Darkness Dynamic cuz they signed with a brillant label. But dudes, these guys do pure sound, signed with a great label (metal blade), and show that here in France, people do other things than red wine and cheese xD Ha ha :) Then, please, even if it's more difficult than simply hating, be open-minded, stop to spite and move your ass ! :) I go to sleep, dreaming of my future synth... meow ! > <
It's obvious, music is a really interesting world. Cuz even if spend more money that we earn (music asks for sacrifies, much more at the beginning), we learn about anything all along our life. Sound, things to know to plan gigs in a good way, cd press, etc.. And in a human way, you learn too. It's not a common idea in music, but I ever supported little bands that I liked. I think it's stupid to try to crush others to rise. That's so human. With Scread, that's cool, cuz we're not so human x) ha ha. It's more interesting to support bands and becoming friends than spite in their back or being jealous, blablabla. That's not my way. STOP BEING CHILDISH
I think that any artist has right to exist. Even mainstream pure shits. Whatever is the style, there's always work behind a band getting on stage all over the world, selling cds, etc.. Even for TH. I hate their music deeply, I can't bear their image, childish reactions of their groupies, etc.. But I respect their work. People who prefer to spite before understand like to hate what doesn't fit them. Personnally, I know that there's nothing if you do nothing. Sure, we always can speak about what is better, blablabla. But this is childish. Why to blame an artist who gets fame for what he's doing ? It's cool for him, even if you estimate that you're worth better, etc.. You know, I don't think that jealousy is the way. Sometimes I'm disapointed too, of working so hard for not so much consideration, but you have to know why you do things. Then, jealousy won't ever grab you ;) Well, I'm happy that some musicians are united. We spoke about it with Heinrich, my friend and bass in Blackrain... We have much to gain being united, fightint together, than trying to bring the other bands down. I know that lots of people here in France spited on Darkness Dynamic cuz they signed with a brillant label. But dudes, these guys do pure sound, signed with a great label (metal blade), and show that here in France, people do other things than red wine and cheese xD Ha ha :) Then, please, even if it's more difficult than simply hating, be open-minded, stop to spite and move your ass ! :) I go to sleep, dreaming of my future synth... meow ! > <
Another little preview of a possible graphic for my clothing brand, in a trash & kawai style ! Enjoy it ! :D
Again, a night spent with a song of Muse in the head... I was not a fan, but there are lyrics you can't ignore. It gets me sad, that's what beauty is able to do with me... And she's beautiful. This song. To chase this starlight isn't an easy thing, but carrying on this, with all the strength in our nails, spend days and nights for it, I know what it means. There are desires which aren't reasonable but means the world for us and make that nothing has a sense anymore, that nothing is able to give us pleasure or anything else, as long we don't find answers to questions which are moving under our skin. A goal to our existence. Nothing else. And I don't care about people who care if I live or die. We would never hurt if we would never try anything. It would be sad to follow this way...
